mandygene

    I feel like my life right now is like a game of "Loves Me, Loves Me Not", except it's more like "It Will Go Good, It Will Go Bad".

    Examples:

    One: I got a job that pays pretty well! Thank you (insert Deity of choice here)! Issue? I just might get fired because my damn stepfather is to stingy with our money and won't buy the clothing I need for the job. If I don't go in this uniform, I could get fired! Getting fired on the first day? Imagine that going on your permanent record...

    Two: I had finally saved up enough money to start paying for a cell phone with my parents paying me $12.50 a week to clean the whole house. Primary Issue: My parents refuse to pay me any longer, so I need a job (see problem one). Secondary Issue: I had about $150 saved up, but my parents refuse to pay that now, courtesy of my stepdad. Tertiary Issue: My little bro got me locked out of the damn thing, so the guy who gave it to me has to reset the whole thing. ||llOTL...

    Three: I was content, had friends and was completely relaxed about being surrounded with people who liked me. Primary Issue: One of the closest ones apparently thinks I am a bitch and talks about me behind my back. You know who the hell you are! >.> Secondary Issue: A few long-distance friends of mine are ignoring me now. Tertiary Issue: My table-top gaming group of friends replaced me as soon as my ex got a new girlfriend. I am seriously considering hating people.

    Four: I made the musical, we were doing "The Wizard of Oz". It was a wonderful cast, and I could get along with everyone. Primary Issue: The only director that could vouch for my talent, and keep casting unbiased is now teaching somewhere else. I miss Mr. Rose so much already! Secondary Issue: I have to quit so I can get an effing job and an income (again see problem one). Problem Three: I officially hate theatre. Way too judgmental and biased. Only the "beautiful people" get casted. JERKS!

    Five: I am doing martial arts, eating a lot healthier and feeling better because of it. Primary Issue: I still gain weight. WTF!? Secondary Issue: I still get yelled at for not being active.... -_- Seriously? Tertiary Issue: My stepdad eats all my healthy stuff before he eats his own stuff... the stuff I can't eat because it makes me sick. Unhealthy = Gross! Only unhealthy left = Not eating...

    Six: Turns out I don't need Anti- Depressants anymore. They were only causing most of my problems. So, I am not major depressive. Issue? My condition is worse. I am severely bipolar. *Sigh* AKA: Manic Depressive. If you don't know what it means, look it up. Might explain why I act the way I do...

    Seven: School starts Monday. Primary Issue: I will be a Junior in High School. That means two full school years until graduation, it is way too close. Secondary Issue: I really have to step my grades up and study hard for the SAT. I really need a scholarship. So... ten times the stress please. Tertiary Issue: I happened to get a new counselor, so when I went to change back into advanced classes, she had to redo my schedule (which only had five periods instead of eight on it). My schedule goes somewhat like this: Mondays- Pre-AP Pre-Cal, Pre-AP Physics, Advanced French Two, Regular English, AP U.S. History, Art 2, Child Development (for teaching exp.), then Theatre Production (WOOT FOR A BLOW OFF CLASS THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BUILD SET BUT DOES NOTHING CUZ IT SUCKS). ; Tues. & Thurs.- Pre-AP Pre-Cal, Pre-AP Physics, Regular English, Art 2, then Theatre Production (see above rant). ; Wed. & Fri. - Pre-AP Pre-Cal, Advanced French Two, A.P U.S. History, Child Development, then Theatre Production (again, see above rant). ALL of my basics are in the morning. I am not a morning person.

Well sorry to take up (whoever is reading this) your time. I had to rant, even if no one reads this. So yeah.....